oh no.

it's days like today that i dread alfiyan going to ns the most.

the day starts off pretty well, since i get to listen to alfiyan's voice over the phone when he wakes me up in the morning. plus i'd still be feeling contented from yesterday's time spent with him.

i get up, go about with my morning activities (breakfast, cleaning up my room, laundry, etc.) and the first pangs of missing alfiyan hit me at about noon. and so i'd wait patiently by my hp for an sms or call from him if he said he'd be busy beforehand (which is usually the case on sundays) and i'd practically POUNCE on my poor hp every time it beeps.

the dose of love i receive from alfiyan is enough to keep me happy till 3 plus. from then on, i'd just be missing him like crazy and if i'm bored, i'd be pestering alfiyan with regular calls though i keep telling myself to let him have an easy day and catch up with his sleep. lucky for him, today i have an exam to study for so he is generally bother-free. :)

the evening is the worst. sometimes i'd be so emotionally affected from lack of contact with alfiyan that when i do get to talk to him again on the phone, i'll let out my frustation at him for no reason whatsoever. and i'd look forward to the next day when i'd get to see him again so much so that i'd get antsy and won't be able to concentrate on doing any work.

which scares me because it tells me that i can barely survive a day without meeting alfiyan. what more two whole weeks? :( to make things worse, telephone contact with him is even more restricted when he's in camp.

doesn't this entry make me sound pathetic? it's as though i can't be my own person with my own things to do without alfiyan. sigh. but that's just the way it is and i have no freaking idea how to overcome this.

someone help.

my darling jesvin wrote this entry on her blog:

NO NO NOT ME!! MISS JANNAH NJ HERE IS IN DENIAL STAGE! as evidenced by:

ann djae:

yay! you're my best fren

-Twenteen-:

hahah this was ur sec sch line to everyone!

ann djae:

hahaha really meh!

-Twenteen-:

yessss..lets recap:

JESVIN UR MY BEST FREN

AYUNI UR MY BEST FREN

KHAIRUL UR MY BEST FREN

IGNATIOUS UR MY BEST FREN

TT SHORT ITE GUY CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME UR MY BEST FREN

TT RUGBY ITE GUY CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME ALSO UR MY BEST FREN

ann djae:

WHERE GOT!

this was her classic act cute line to flirt wif guys n eermm girls? haha

she also denies being MR RATISH FAV STUDENT!! she ahem ahem ahem..i shall not complete tt sentence..hahah attending all his lessons..completing all his assignments FIRST! looking at him allllll the time..hahah!! remember anything jannah..or u want me to say more..hahah

A SPECIAL SONG DEDICATED TO JANNAH'S BEST FRENS (SO CALLED)!!!

but i beg to differ. i don't say it to flirt with guys OR girls kayy! ;p maybe only with jesvin la since she sat beside me in class. hehe.

and i'm definitely NOT mr ratish's favourite student, in fact, he never really taught us, except for remedials and stuff. so how can i be right? hahah nonsense la jesvin!

anw you guys should go view this:

bleargh.

the exams are taking a toll on me. i am feeling majorly exhausted like never before - my muscles are refusing to work and all i want is to settle myself into my soft, comfortable bed, sinking into the oblivion of sleep.

but noooo i can't. i have two papers today, at 1pm and 5pm respectively. which i've obviously not studied enough for since i had another paper yesterday at 5pm, which means that i reached home only at 9pm!!! this sucks.

thank god for alfiyan and ella and zurah, though. if not for them, i'd probably already go crazy from the stress.

ok then i better get back to trying to answer past year exam questions for MS 2210. wish me luck, everyone!

it's time.

the time that i have dreaded for the past year or so has arrived. :( alfiyan has finally received his ns enlistment letter, which states that he must report somewhere in pasir ris on the 14th june 2007, to bmt school 2. and you know what that means - he's been posted to the army.

sigh. and i was really hoping that he'd get posted to police instead since i'll probably be able to see alfiyan more often. oh, well. the good thing is that i've always thought that army guys are way hotter than those in police or CD so i can't wait to see my baby all handsome and macho in his uniform. hehe.

from now on, i will try my very best to avoid picking a fight with alfiyan at all costs and instead, to make the most out of the one month plus that we have left before ns starts. plus i musn't get upset too easily and even if i do, i musn't prolong the argument even after alfiyan has apologised.

PLEASE REMIND ME.

oh btw this is the other dress alfiyan bought me. :) sorry that i'm so vain hahah.

in other news, my beloved macbook is temporarily out of service because my power adaptor is faulty! which is absolutely the WORST timing ever because all my notes are in the laptop so how the heck am i supposed to revise for exams without them? let's just hope that the IT Co-op gets back to me soon so that i can print out my notes.

we are strong enough, i know we are.

another great day!

today was yet another awesome day with my darling! ;)

we met early in the morning just to spend time with each other talking, listening, hugging, kissing. words are insufficient for me to express just how special that moment was with alfiyan, and just how much i love him. which is a lot, by the way. some photos:


orchard rd was our next destination, where we did some window-shopping. it was pretty okay, i guess, but i was happy just having my fingers interlinked with alfiyan's or having his arms around me, oblivious to everyone else.

and then we headed on to fish & co, as promised. the food couldn't be any more delicious, and the company was even better. i was full halfway through the meal but made sure i finished every bite of it because it was, after all, sayang's treat for us. some photos:





before sending me off to my doorstep, i received a tight tight hug and a light kiss on my forehead and the sweetest, most heartfelt apology, for everything that's hurt me throughout our relationship, bringing tears to my eyes instantly.

alfiyan really is the best guy i've ever met. despite whatever we've been through, and all the nonsense that we've put each other through, the bottom line is, HE ALWAYS MAKES THINGS RIGHT. which is something i treasure a lot about him, and shows me that he really does love me as much as i love him.

argh the tears are back.

it's been such an emotional day, i think i'll go rest now. bye, all!

happy day!

today alfiyan brought me out shopping! :):):)

and he bought me two pretty girly dresses. hehe.

one of which must be worn with jeans, though, since it's too short and hence will reveal my trunk-like thighs.

i'm a happy girl again!

heeeeeee.

:(

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME JUST HOW EXACTLY AM I SUPPOSED TO ENDURE NOT SEEING ALFIYAN FOR MORE THAN A WEEK (2 WEEKS DURING CONFINEMENT PERIOD OF BMT) DURING HIS NATIONAL SERVICE WHEN RIGHT NOW I CAN'T EVEN TAKE NOT BEING WITH HIM FOR LESS THAN 24 HOURS?!?!?!?!?

:)

ok so i was browsing through the photos in my macbook and i came across this:



my darling classmate, lim pei yiing, back from the awkward JC days actually drew this anime portrait of me! isn't she the sweetest? and extremely talented too!

i miss her. :(

GUESS WHAT ALFIYAN DID FOR ME?? :):)

this has got to be the best monthsary EVER.

today during his lunch break he went all the way to orchard road, with fairul and nasir, in search of a very very nice present for our 16th anniversary. he had to go to a total of FOUR outlets (in a span of 45 mins!!) before finding it, apparently it was sold out at almost all the outlets - except the one at Isetan!

and it's just what i wanted - A GUESS WALLET!

hehehe.







i know it probably doesn't look like much from the photos, but, like i said, it's just what i wanted! and my sweetheart yan was just so thoughtful and romantic to surprise me with it right at the moment when i met him at novena.

heeeeheeeeeeeee. i'm a happy girl, yes i am. :)

byebye old, kiddy wallet!

you're simply the best.

tonight i made alfiyan write me a testimonial on friendster over the phone since he isn't able to do so personally, thanks to his PC crashing.

and sweetie (as befits the name) was so sweet to actually go along with it and dictated to me the sweetest things. and it had the same effect, if not better, on me as during the instances when i was surprised by his testimonials.

have i mentioned it lately?

i love muhd alfiyan so much cuz he's just the best.

bleargh is this blog getting too mushy? but it has always been too mushy so why should i start caring now eh? hahahah.

sorry.

i know it gets boring, but I LOVE YOU BABY. :)

today at the free nkf health screening at nus forum, i found out for sure that i am 61.1 KG (6 kg overweight), have 31.4% body fat content (1.4% more than the healthy range) and have a blood cholesterol level of 229mg/dl (29 mg/dl higher than desirable). I HAVE HIGH CHOLESTEROL LEVEL! which MEANS that there can no longer be any breadtalk, four leaves, q bread, big cakes etc treats for me. and no deep fried foods as well. the nkf person said that for a young person, it is rather worrying so i better keep closer watch on my diet. :(

but anw. the earlier part of the afternoon was spent with ella and zahra, who brought me to the science canteen. it was my very first time can you believe it? after almost a year studying at nus! the malay food looked really tempting but since i was supposed to make sure my money can last me till the end of the month, i restrained from buying anything. after which we all went for that health screening, leaving me in this state of resentment at myself. hahah.

then my darling alfiyan came over to join me at perk point (he only went to work for half a day) to prepare for his MOE/NTU/NIE interview for admission to BSc(Ed.). :) i think it's sexy of my boyfriend to want to become a PE teacher. hehe.

i kept getting whiny at the every slightest thing today, and you know what that means! the dreaded PMS has arrived, though it seems like just yesterday that it went away. luckily alfiyan, being the bestest boyfriend as usual, laughed it off, during the moment when i was whining to him about why he stopped wearing the ring i bought him about a year ago. apparently the way i was pms-ing was very comical, since it was such a minor issue. hahaha. plus he persisted in making me feel better by continuous hugs and kisses and he even bought me a kitkat chunky white, my alltime favourite!!

he's so sweet right?

such elation. :)

today has got to be the most awesome day that i've had in a long long time. :) and there is only one underlying reason for this: that alfiyan was willing to skip a day of work (and hence money making) just to make me the happiest girl around. hehe.

i met him early in the morning at tampines interchange to accompany him to get his haircut - that surprisingly took only a very short while, and costed less than $10 too! i wanted to get a haircut myself, esp to make my bangs thinner but i am so broke at the moment. :( oh well.

and theeenn we went all the way back to woodlands's causeway point to catch a movie - TMNT! it was such a short movie, but luckily we had to pay only $12 for both our tickets (weekday + student rate). silly alfiyan showed the usher movie stubs from the movie we watched on sunday (shooter) and all that usher could say was, "thank you, and enjoy your movie." hahahah. just goes to show how attentive the cathay cineleisure staff are!

well anw while waiting for the movie to start we did this:








so fun right??? hehe. i love my boyfriend so so much!

yay my darling just said that he'll be taking the whole of wednesday off from work to spend the day with me! :):):) we're going to have such a great day with great plans lined up.. heheh.

i love you, alfiyan!