new year's eve.

this is me all forlorn and depressed because i won't be able to see my darling alfiyan for two entire loooong, miserable days:

i already miss him so so much although it's barely 24 hours since i last saw him. we were supposed to spend some time with each other this evening but it was not to be. oh, well.

my family and i are staying over at my dad's workplace (novotel clarke quay) for two nights since my dad is on duty because of the new year's celebrations. it's pretty cool i guess, since we get to sleep in a comfy, airconditioned hotel suite and don't have to do any of the usual household chores. and we can feast at the coffeehouse's buffet dinner plusplus i'm still able to get free wireless internet access using my laptop so it won't be as boring as the previous occasions we stayed over.

we took some pics:



but nothing will change the fact that i'm missing alfiyan like hell.

well anw. tonight my family is heading over to clarke quay where apparently there's like a mardi gras-like countdown celebration. i have no clear idea of what it's about actually, but i guess it wouldn't hurt to take a look. more updates on my stay later! ;)

on another note, these are the modules that i've already secured for next semester:

PL1101E - Introduction to Psychology
NM1101E - New Media and Society
SC2101 - Methods of Social Research
SC2206 - Culture and Society

i'll be bidding for two more modules in the subsequent rounds, which will be GEK1001 (Place, Environment and Society) and MS2210 (Malay Culture and Society).

6 modules next semester! how will i cope? alfiyan has already offered me all his help and support for next semester, though (such a sweetie) loooong long ago, right after that unfortunate stupidity of mine decided to surface which resulted in me having to retake my GEK1001 module.

okay i think this post has been long enough. i now have to pass over my laptop to my siblings who are bored out of their minds. hahaha.

later, dudes. (and dudettes).

Fun.really.

Today! was a fun daaayyyyy! no no, it was SUPERB! i got to spend almost the whole day with my dearest nurul. we did'nt do much actually, but its better than just meeting each other after school and just sending her home. She accompanied me to get my new contact lenses and get my specs done. the new pair is gonna be a geeky pair, thick black frames, heh. geeky geeky. I just had to take my eye examination again. 'cause i was really frightened that i was using the wrong degree or something like that. true enough, the optoguy said that my degree was lower than what i was currently using! Yeaar, no wonder i used to have headaches oh so frequently. Nurul the kpo(joking) was in the eye test room watching me don that mechanical-like robotic specs. she was laughing at my ridicule, i knew she was. haha, yeah it reminded her of that 6th day movie, starring arnie terminator. -_-

then, we headed to my kembangan house to take some stuff and have lunch there. we had chocs, maggi mee and milo! And we just spent lots of precious time together anjoying each other's company. then we were about to leave and it rained super heavily! so we were stranded there in the house. i thought today was gonna be a sunny day, sigh. well its GOD's will so what can i say but Alhamdulillah.

When the rain stopped, we then headed off back to woodlands, home of the NJ. haha.haha. we walked round causeway point nad cold storage to get a loaf of bread. then we headed to nurul's void deck to just chat and enjoy the peach marigold jelly. After that at around2030, we parted to our separate ways to head home. sigh. i miss her already. thanks nurul for a great day and a great holiday!! =)

friday... deathnote 2! yay!

sigh.

here it comes again. that sucky feeling that arises every time it dawns onto me that i am profoundly lacking as a student, a girl, a person. a human being. on each occasion this occurs, questions materialise in my mind, plunging me deeper and deeper into the troughs of depression and self-depreciation.

why can't i be as intelligent as other people? as ethereally beautiful? as rich and famous?

i guess i have no one to blame but myself for this, because it is i who love to nose around other people's blogs and friendster profiles. so when photographs of an impossibly stunning girl appear before my eyes, or when i read of a 19-year-old already owning her own Chevrolet Aveo, or achieving straight As in her exams, i cannot hold others accountable for the immense resent i feel not only towards them, but towards myself as well.

it's only me, me, me. and the stupid things i do.

oh well. i guess life is just meant to be like that. besides, i know i really should stop comparing myself with others because that will just leave me unsatisfied with whatever i already have. plus i read somewhere that if i spend my whole life comparing myself to others, i'll never be worth comparison. or something like that.

i'm not saying that i'm unhappy with my life right now, because i'm NOT. in fact, there is not a day that i don't feel blissfully content at one point of the day or other because i'm blessed to have someone like yan by my side who never fails to cheer me up and make me laugh again in my not-so-good moments.

i love you so much.

so moving on. these past few days have been really great thanks to it being the holidays for both yan and i! which means seeing each other is not just me waiting for him to finish whatever he has to do in school, having dinner, and him sending me home. we go on proper dates now! hehe. these include movies, window shopping, chocolates and all that other stuff! ;)

ok now i feel so much better again cuz i am the luckiest girl to have someone so loving, sweet, thoughtful and who gives the best hugs and kisses to spend time with every day!

today i made yan sick because the mee maggi i cooked for him was too kembang. poor guy. i really think i'm a disaster in the kitchen. during his birthday, i was so enthusiastic about baking him a real brownie birthday cake but THAT got burnt barely ten minutes after i placed it in the oven. and i never fail to make a mess everytime i attempt at cooking something. ;p

well that's all for now! bye!

The Sexy Name Decoder

ok so i was bored. and so i went friendstering and came across one of the photos on asyraf's (yan's brother) profile which intrigued me, called The Sexy Name Decoder.

one thing led to another, and i got my own interesting sexy name decoder! :) hehe.

here it is:

Get Your Sexy Name

yay! i'm happy cuz i'm a jewel and jewel are always pretty little things. of course, i can't say that i'm little (everyone knows how BIG i am lol) and pretty isn't always an apt word to describe me but a girl can dream right? ;)

and alfiyan's is:

Get Your Sexy Name

hehe and i am just the luckiest girl to be the one whom alfiyan supplies all those indulgence and delicious necking too! i love you baby.

go ahead guys, you can get your own too! :) if you're as bored out of your mind as i am, that is.

more reports from vivo.

hahah ok so i'm supposed to continue from yan's entry.

hmm let's see. at vivo, we went in search of foooood! when we finally settled down at banquet with our respective fried fish tomyam handmade noodles, yan decided that he didn't like it. so he didn't finish his bowl and neither did i! what a waste right? our leftovers combined could've made up one complete bowl! ;p

well anw so that left our hunger not satiated and we allowed it to lead us to.... carl's junior! :)


before that we went to candy empire where my darling (love you!) bought me two bars of chocolates, a super large one consisting of marshmallows and jellies named rocks and another wonka's one filled with caramel. i liiiike! ;)



ok so with all our food in tow, we headed on to the area by the water, facing sentosa.




the picturesque scenery, the slight breeze in our hair, the light music emanating from the plants, the delectable food and especially alfiyan's presence made the moment so tangibly perfect.

such bliss.



right now i'm keeping myself entertained in my room with photo editing, lord of the rings (*beams*) and blogging since i have been disallowed from going to sebastian's christmas party by my dad. oh, well. at least yan will still enjoy himself! i already told him to take photos so those will be up soon, hopefully! hehe.

ok then that's all for now!

V-Foooo!

Today... was a GREAT DAAAyyyyy!!

Yep2, nurul and i went out... erm, to just spend time together la.
Had loads and loads of fun! WE first went to SP to return due dvds and then went of to town taking bus 106 from dover. we went from shop to shop from orchard all the way to somerset and then to dhoby ghaut. Today... i think we splurged mostly on food. yes, glorious food. well only today lar. In town, i bought old chang kee and nurul craved for DQ ice cream, so i got her a brownie temptation! the nyonya who served us was so kukoo! she was supposed to serve it upside down, but she gave us like some roadside cup ice cream served upright. turn off la. form Dhoby ghaut, we made our way to VivoCity! hey its our first time there okay, so kinda noob la. we planned to go there together one day for the first time, so today's the day! There, we bought food. again. hahah, after much walking lah of course. wahlao, the place is like a F&*&*^ maze la! we had to refer to the directory a few times. but the environment and architecture was splendid, and i think most shops that you could think of to be in a mall in singapore would be found in vivocity. ITS HUGE. and the crowd seems neverending la. Ok la, lazy to type already, here are some pics!




Her kisses are priceless. And, sexy. =P


Do you think I'm pretty? yeah, your'e gorgeous alright nurul, seriously.whats that i see! tabung!!!! lol. joking.


Aiyeeee!! Motion sickness! I think im gonna hurl!


she has severe motion sickness, this was how she was after only like 10 minutes into the bus ride.

alright, the rest of the pics will be posted by nurul peeps! adios.

i just realised that mcr is pretty good. :)

hey everyone! it's been a while, hasn't it? hehe.

i just got back from my very first REAL trip to KL on monday and i suppose it was a pretty awesome trip, considering i only spent one and a half days there. on the other hand, i kind of suffered cuz i missed my darling yan so so much. :( luckily there was free wireless access in the hotel (which was named novotel hydro majestic hotel. yeah i know, what's up with the "hydro" right?) so that i could websms and chat with yan via msn. :) he fell into a deep slumber the second night though, so i wasn't able to then, although i had baizurah help me call him and everything. thanks baizurah for trying! hehe.

i bought quite a number of things there, especially at petaling street, which was shopping heaven for those on a budget. they even had tiffany & co. knockoffs which looked really authentic! i didn't buy any, though. sigh. plus we visited a few places like the KLCC and berjaya times square and stuff.

here're some pics from the trip:







i returned to singapore a day earlier than the rest of the family so that i could attend a dinner & dance at Pan Pacific Hotel with yan! my poor baby had to wait for like 3 hours for me to arrive because of my extremely poor judgement in timing. but as always, yan was the most understanding boyfriend ever and didn't kick up a fuss at all. love you syg! ;)

the event itself was pretty entertaining (the emcee was really hilarious) and the food was grrreaat! we were served and everything! and after that, we all went to balcony and wisma atria to have a few drinks. well, yan and i didn't, obviously, we were just there to hang out. here're some pics:









my mom tailored my dress for me, btw. haha. and my hair turned out to be different from what i wanted, but oh what the heck. i enjoyed myself and that's all that matters!

well that's all people! till next time.

euphoria.

yay! sunday was the very first anniversary for alfiyan and i, and although i was unable to meet up and have a proper celebration with my darling on that day itself, the thought of it kept me floating on cloud nine the whole weekend. :) although we have been through our share of bad moments, it all still works out in the end. the past year was nothing short of sensational because i've never been happier in my life, and it's all thanks to alfiyan!



thanks baby, i love you so much!

the past weekend was simply fantastic (though it would've been much better with alfiyan around). i indulged in many doses of happy with cousins and relatives, many of whom i get to meet only once a year during hari raya, during abang yusoff's wedding. the whole experience was really exciting because he was the very first cousin from my mom's immediate family to get married, and i got to hang out with yaz, annur, hafiz, etc. right from friday night!

some photos from the event:







ok that's all! <3

The word is...

Hey its me and nurul's one year anniversary ya'll! hahah, yay! happy one year anniversary to you nurul! you've been nothing but tha BEST la to me. WE had plenty of sweet,enjoyable moments. We also learnt lessons in life together. So thank you for being there for me 24/7. I pray that our relationship will sustain and will remain intact no matter what. Insya'allah. And i'm sorry for all the mistakes that i've done whether on accident or intentionally. I am stupid and i just did something uber-stupid la. Im very sorry aight.

I miss her so much now. lol. Im studying and rotting away at home. I've no appetite la, heh, i'm on this cutting regime now. Give me 1 month. at least.

Well, til then peeps.

I just woke up. Its been a long time since i got to sleep in during weekdays. lol. and yesterday went out with nurul to walk walk see see at bugis. had a great time with her but the walking2 was just not bad. nothing thaaat appealing to me. but nevertheless, nurul WAS there. so it waS still overall FUNNN! I love you lots sweets. ;)

Anyway, FYP presentation for moi waS over on saturday but our grades weren't finalised yet coz the other groups had theirs only yesterday. HAHAH, hope they did okay! and tomorrow, my FYP group has to come down to the lab to get filmed by the news crew of channel 8(why channel8????) on performing some labwork related to our fyp project. haha, joke. So look out for me in a doodled white labcoat on tv if you catch it. we probably will be on national tv for like what, 5-6 seconds? lol. whatever la.

I got a class at 12pm later. then finish at 2pm. gottat hit the books after that. haha, and nurul really deserves a break after all that exam pressure and stress and sleepless nights and my idiocy. hhaha and i realise that its a small world after all eh?

catcha later.

exhiliration.

today was the first time in ages since alfiyan and i spent time with each other doing something enjoyable on a weekday. we went window shopping at bugis street! :) it was great, great fun. we talked, laughed, and talked some more. and as always, indulged in many2 hugs and kisses in between the hand-holding and tickling and just goofing around like a couple of nuts.

and that is how i know that alfiyan is the one i'm meant to be with. because around him, i can stop pretending being who i am not. i can be myself, shedding whatever facades that i may display when around others. he accepts me for who i am, despite my selenge-ness and weird2 mannerisms and habits.

which explains why i love him so, so much.

on another note, exams are SO over. i now have all the time in the world to surf aimlessly, do lots and lots of readings, watch movies, and many other activities that i wasn't able to during the exam period. yaaayy. ;)

ok i shall go back to read my storybook now! take care, all.

today i actually felt my heart literally ache.

Best B'day ever.

Hey for everyone who wished me on my b'day ytd,thank you all so much alright? and especially to nurul, youre the bestest best girlfriend lah! thank you soooo sooo much for the surprises yesterday and today alright? =D really, you got me there and the moments were priceless.

She surprised me by coming all the way to the end of SP at the aquaculture unit at 0825 yesterday to pass me my birthday presents! how swweeeet is that! and in front of my friends and lecturer summore. wow. seriously, she lied to me by saying she was gonna help mer mum get bread from the shop. hahah and i fell for it. she got me a brown wallet from TOPMAN,a box of GuyLian chocs and a DIY birthday card that was hhhuge and in the shape of a HEART! <3! hahah, love you soo much baby!

my class and Dr elango sang me a birthday song and i was so stunned and paiseh. haha.

ANw. todayyyy, i had my final final official FYP presentation and my group aced it man! YEAAAH! no fumbles, smoothness good and fine and questions all answered perfectly. steady la guys,nic and dan, youve been great team mates! especially nic, he deserves a pat on the back for great leadership and hardwork and most effort. haha

Nurul surprised me yet again with slices of different cakes! there was a chocolate classic, the blackforest and a HEART shaped mousse cake. all veerrrry delicious! thanks syg! thank you so much for a great bday alright! muacks and hugs!

till then peeps.

dah besar anak mak..

i would like to take this opportunity to say,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to MOHD ALFIYAN! :) :) :)

i love you lots sweetie,
may your 19th year of life fill you with lots of love, joy and happy surprises!