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Monday, June 25, 2007

The Diary of How I Survived 2 Weeks Confinement - Day 12


i swear i'm the lousiest girlfriend ever on the face of the earth.

i know alfiyan's not having the best of times in camp - being bald, surrounded by guys only and stripped of most comforts, he's bound to be cranky now and then. so i do try my very best to cheer him up at the end of the day, and usually i'd like to believe that i'm able to. tonight, however, was a different matter.

not only did our conversation make a turn for the ugly, both alfiyan's hp batteries died while we were talking halfway, thanks to me not being able to let issues go. the 9watt battery that he got his sergeant to buy was also completely used up by then, so our conversation ended pretty abruptly. and the worst thing was, alfiyan lost a total hour of sleep that he's supposed to have to prepare himself for tmrw's busy day - running, route march and weapon presentation ALL THANKS TO ME.

sigh. i feel like such a failure.

and yet alfiyan's still the best boyfriend ever who's willing to risk anything and everything to make me happy.

oh pleasepleaseplease god don't let him get into trouble.

and to think our day was actually a rather wonderful one - alfiyan called me every single time he was able to, which was quite a number of times since he didn't have many programmes today.

did i mention that i'm the worst person ever to be a girlfriend?

anw today was spent mostly talking to alfiyan on the phone and doing light strength training while watching inside man on vcd. i was supposed to have tuition, but that was canceled since fauzan called to say he was too tired and sick.

oh, and i ate a lot again today.

sigh i'm so depressed right now. baby i'm very very sorry for causing our day to end on such a lousy note. i promise i'll make it up to you one day.

i love you sayang - you're everything i've ever wished for, and more.


nj laid bare @ 11:43 PM