and now i've got a sluty bag! ;)

What if you slept?
And what if in your sleep, you dreamed?
And what if in your dream, you went to heaven
and there plucked a strange and beautiful flower?
And what if, when you woke, you had the flower in your hand?
Ah! What then?

- SAMUEL TAYLOR COLERIDGE

since it's the holidays and all i've started to read again. it's been a while since i last immersed myself in a story set in a world poles apart from how i know it as, and boy, does it feel gooooood. i never had enough luxury time during the semester to indulge in such activities, and even when i thought i did, reading anything other than those on my assigned readings list or textbook often evoked a considerable amount of guilt in me. right now i'm thoroughly enjoying jodi picoult's second glance, a fiction novel which manages to fuse the elements of love, spirits, eugenics and time rather marvelously. :)

well anw, i've been doing some thinking, thanks to the large amount of free time that i have in my hands nowadays. i seem to recall from my psych revision that Piaget mentions that adolescents (a term i readily accept for myself right now) are not yet completely free of egocentric thought, and so what i've been thinking is that that i should stop being so self-involved and listen more to other people, hear what they have to say instead of being too obsessed with me all the time. this way, i know definitely that i am making positive steps towards adulthood.

or maybe i'm just macam-fahaming.

ah, well. on another note, it has come to my realization that my love for alfiyan increases with every single new day that i spend with him. relient k has done a good job in describing how i feel, actually:

and I know that its so cliche
to tell you that everyday i spend with you
is the new best day of my life.

it's always the small things that makes me so blissfully happy that breath is knocked out of me for a couple of seconds - how the corners of his eyes turns upwards in synchrony with the edges of his mouth when he smiles, his soft touch on my hair, guiding my head towards his just before we kiss, the tender note in his voice when he says that i'm the only girl he wants to be with, ever.

now this, this feeling, is something i want to last forever.

=)

again, i would like to apologize for being overly mushy.

before i end this post, i would like to say: JESVIN!! WHEN ARE WE GOING TO HANG OUT? we live like five minutes away from each other, so no excuses! hehe. besides, i miss you, you dodo bird! =)

(sings: jesvin jesvin bobesvin banana fana fofesvin...)