and one is left.

alfiyan has decided that blogging is not for him (obviously, judging from his absence *rolls eyes*). so i was contemplating whether this blog should be deleted (since nobody comes read it anw) and just create a blog of my own, but i decided against it because i'm just too lazy to go through all that length because of this disappointment.

but anw whatever. i can't force him to do everything i want him to because i don't own him or anything. i do still love him very much still, though. :) don't anybody get that wrong! lol.

on another note, i feel extremely fatigued nowadays. and PMS-y. so what's new eh? i hate this PMS experience, it always drains the energy out of me and makes me so, so, so depressed about myself and every single random thing. and the closest person to me, alfiyan, will always be the one to feel me wrath and it's making him hate me more and more with each passing month.

okay updated news: alfiyan has given me the green light to remove his account for this blog, so perhaps i'll just create a new blog after all. sigh. i feel depressed. and now alfiyan is saying that i keep making him feel sian by bringing up the issue of him not blogging anymore since he says he'll blog only when he feels like and that my PMS is getting out of hand. there's only so much he can take, he says.

i want to beat myself up to death, i swear. i hate my extended PMS every single month because my period is always, always late. why can't i have regular periods so that the duration of my PMS is shortened?

i hate myself.