moved!

thanks to shahira, i have decided to move this blog to this address.

please update your links ok? thanks! :)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
Cuz it's true, I am nothing without you.

you're the brightest star in my sky.

words aren't enough to describe how today was the best day i've had in my entire life, and i have you to thank for it:


so many things happened today that made me smile so wide, laugh so hard and feel so loved that i can't possibly write all of them down. every single hug, every single kiss and every single look sent shivers of pleasure down my spine and i remember wanting memories of that great feeling forever grooved into my mind, which is why i'm putting this reminder of one of the most awesome moments i've had in this relationship for the reference of future me.

baby, i love you so so so much and i will never do anything to jeopardize this special bond that we have. i know i've done many mistakes that i truly regret now but i want you to know that i'm doing all i can to make it right again. :)

the past two days were actually filled with lots and lots of money-spending!! here're the things that alfiyan and i bought:

1. 2 new dresses $36
2. 1 white elastic belt $23
3. 1 pair of black pointed pumps $20
4. 1 heart & key necklace chain $13
5. 1 rock star tshirt $15
6. 1 black topman tshirt $19
7. 1 black ripcurl cap $39
8. PSP leather casing $22...

...which has a rather interesting story to it. heheh. it all started with us entering comic connection at PS and alfiyan spotting this leather casing for PSP which he's been wanting to buy but has never found till just now. i knew he really really wanted it because he was all tense and upset since he had already bought an expensive new crystal case for his PSP about 3 weeks ago and hence didn't want to spend so much more on ANOTHER protective PSP casing. so, after we left the shop, i told alfiyan that i wanted to go to the toilet when instead, i went back to the shop to surprise him:






alfiyan's happy again which made me happy too! :)

oh, and today we also went for WOMAD at Fort Canning Park which was actually pretty interesting and fun. i bumped into four of my secondary school teachers which was kind of weird since they were all drinking and dancing and smoking - activities one won't normally associate with teachers. unfortunately, we couldn't stay long since alfiyan will be having an early day tomorrow plus my feet were hurting really badly from wearing new shoes. i actually resorted to walking around Fort Canning Park barefooted for at least half of the time we were there!

well anyway. i think i will end this entry now with these photos before going to bed:


(don't mind the fatness).

okay good night everyone!

an attempt at a proper update.

i haven't really been updating properly lately so hopefully this entry will do the job. let's see now, what's new?

my academic timetable has been more or less confirmed - i was allocated all the tutorial slots of my choice except the one for MKT1003 but that shouldn't be too much of a problem (i hope) since there are plenty of other slots that i can fit in into my schedule. so right now my mondays are entirely free, tuesdays and thursdays really packed, wednesdays i'm free after 230pm and fridays, saturdays and sundays are generally reserved for spending time with alfiyan. :)

so if you want to ask me out, i'm free mondays and wednesdays!

since semester has started, i'm able to meet up pretty often with friends like ella, zurah and zahra as well as clarisse and adilah which is just really nice because i missed them during the holidays (although we did meet a couple of times)!




and the time spent together with alfiyan are as awesome as they have always been. although last week was a rather rough one for us, we realised that the only reason we were arguing so much was because we missed each other more than usual (which is puzzling because i thought i had the hang of alfiyan being in ns since the previous weeks passed by with relative ease). but anyway i'm thankful that alfiyan and i are always able to talk things through in the end, which always makes me love him even more. :)



the photos were taken on different days, btw. alfiyan is always wearing the same cap - which is why i'm going to take him shopping this coming weekend for a new one and perhaps a polo tee or two. i just received my mendaki pay! hehe. speaking of shopping, i have absolutely no idea what gift to present him with after his POP in about three weeks' time. hmm...

alfiyan had his IPPT today and he was awarded a silver!!! =) i am really really really proud of him especially since he's still having a cold plus he stayed up till midnight (talking to me) the night before. congratulations baby!

well okay this is it for now. have fun at lectures, everyone! hehe.

i have the best friends.

there i was, having the worst day and week ever, depressed and broody and even occasionally tearing when zurah came up to me from behind and surprised me with a cup of delicious icecream yogurt, bought by herself and zahra.

thanks guys - you really are the best! :) and the yogurt made me feel lots better.

*hugs*

baby i miss you.

yet our love for each other is keeping me alive,
and the thought that though we're apart...






...we're still under the same sky.

from underneath the stars...

wednesday and thursday was spent with my loves.

adilah and i spent much of wednesday afternoon at wisma atria's starbucks, doing nothing but enjoying each other's company, news and gossips as well as these:






both of us needed to kill time for different reasons - adilah had 4 hours free in between work and pentas budaya whereas i just wanted the hours to pass by faster before meeting alfiyan at night at pasir ris. so we were both pleasantly surprised to discover that time flew by without us really noticing and soon it was time for us to meet halimah and arisya for dinner at far east plaza! :)






as always, i am the biggest girl in the group. sad!

soon after dinner we all left for our separate ways and i met alfiyan at pasir ris with milk tea and some yummy donuts for him. and i don't just mean yummy as an adjective - the donuts were from a shop called 'Yummy' at White Sands. so in return, guess what the sweetheart bought me? a deeeeelicious ben & jerry's ice cream cone which i've been craving for since first finding out that there was an outlet at White Sands. hehe!

the whole of thursday (national day!) was spent with alfiyan, which was just pure bliss. :)


we went shopping at bugis where he bought me three pairs of earrings since i keep losing one side of all my earrings, as well as a really pretty tinkerbell necklace. alfiyan bought himself two band tshirts but i think he was still feeling rather unsatisfied even after the purchases because the things he wanted (fred perry polo tee and topman sweater) were no longer in stock. poor baby!

after stuffing ourselves with a kfc bandito buddy meal, beard papa sweets and jollibean cakes, we headed to a barber near alfiyan's home for this:

so this is how he looks like now:


better, no? :)

anyway, you. how is it that one moment you can make me feel as though i am floating in the air, buoyed by your love and the happiness that results, and the next moment i am so exasperated that i have the urge to strangle you for making silly, trivial mistakes that may seem insignificant but actually result in losses when viewed at as a greater picture?

whatever it is, mistakes are meant to be forgiven and you'll always deserve a second chance from me, just as how you give me countless opportunities to make up for mine. i love you so much and i want you to know that without you, my life is one dreary gray painting.

'cause baby, anything that might be special in me... is you.

on another note - i have four modules allocated to me so far which are:

PL2131 - Research and Statistical Methods I
PL3242 - Health Psychology
MS3209 - The Malays of Singapore
AR3222 - Theory & History of Western Architecture

i'm praying to secure another two more, definitely one more PL module (insya'Allah) and a science GEM.

oh, and one more thing:


happy 20th birthday, zurah! :)

how much?

When should I crawl?
When should I take the final blow?
When is it bad enough,
To earn the right to show?

How hard should I fall
Before it's my turn to be heard?
How much pain should I show on my face
Before you listen to a word?

love/hate relationship with weekends.

my weekend was a bittersweet one, as always.

although we've both gotten into the routine of things, ns is still sort of taking a toll on alfiyan and i. we had several good heart-to-heart talks over the past three days, which shed light on certain aspects of our relationship for both of us. it dawned upon me just how hard it is for my boyfriend to divide his free time during the weekends with the few commitments that he has - family, tarikad, and me - and i'm not making it any easier on him by becoming upset just because he was 15 minutes late in meeting me because he was talking to his dad.

it's obvious that alfiyan really is putting in the best of all efforts to make me happy all the time, to ensure that there is always a smile on my face. that is something i should be very thankful for, because there is no one else in the world but him who would be willing to do that.

i love him very much, yes i do!

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anw our weekend can be summarised by the following photos:


alfiyan's new crumpler bag! :)


enjoying the scenery at bedok reservoir.

cheesy bites fondue at pizza hut!

alfiyan practising his manaqib while waiting for this:



waiting for bus 21 to take us to pasir ris. :)

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you're something beautiful, a contradiction...
...and i love you. :)





p.s., i hate my nose.