i can say without a doubt that today was not one of the best days i've had.

in fact, this whole past week had been more or less shiteous.

i dunno whether we'll ever be the same again, and yan agrees too. it all started from me whining and grumbling about valentine's day (or lack thereof) starting on the eve of 14th feb, all the way till today with only short intervals of lighter feelings in between the dark gloomy moods. i probably got a tad too carried away with the whole thing but somehow i just can't lift my feelings of jealousy and upset whenever i find out about other girls' experiences.

i know, i know label me an ungrateful bitch. yan's done so much for me yet i can't let the freaking thing GO.

sigh. i'm really sorry, baby. you've been nothing but the best to me and i love you so, so much.

well anw.

i don't think i've ever felt this sad in my entire life.